Sunday, September 9, 2012


Since it's pretty much a tradition now to start out by saying how long I haven't posted for, I'll just get that out of the way.

4 Months.

And yes, I'm still alive and kicking.

College is over. I graduated. And now I'm standing on the precipice of the next stage. It doesn't matter if I'm ready or not. I have to jump in. I mean I have to at some point right? Figured now is as good a time as ever.

A lot can happen in four months. Hell, a lot did happen in the last four months. 120 days. One-third of a year. I'd say that's more than enough time for things to happen.

You've dreamed before right? About what you'll be doing. About what you want to do. So did I. My plan from the start was to say goodbye to Delhi at the first chance I got and just get the hell out. Start over. Start anew. Totally independent. Totally free.

So I got a few good offers in Delhi itself. I hadn't started applying to places outside of Delhi as I was kinda pre-occupied with a freelance project I had taken up. But I already had decided to leave. I was so focused and excited to start my own journey. But I guess I wasn't being practical enough. Wasn't thinking clearly. Then after a bit of introspection, I had to decide. I had to weigh in a lot of factors and decide if I wanted to stay here or ignore everything and do what I wanted.

So I did what every sane person should do. I created a huge deal out of this and made the decision. Of course the whole thing had to seem dramatic as well. Knowing me, how could it not?

I'm staying. In Delhi. I'll be working with a pretty cool, up & coming brand consulting and design company. Their website will be up sometime next week so I'll talk in detail about them then.
I'll be working with a team of other designers and I'm really looking forward to that.

It's gonna be a proper work environment. And I've to wear formals. Take it from a guy who's worn trousers for just 2 days of his life, it's pretty nerve-racking. Even intimidating, I'd say. But it should be fun.

I'll be stepping out of my comfort zone, in a persona I'm not used to and will have to coordinate and work with a team to tackle different design projects for different companies.

So yeah, I'm putting off my plan to move out for now. And I think hope I made the right call. I'll be staying back in Delhi. Work in a cool company, gain some experience.

But I'm not gonna regret my decision, that's for sure.
And I'm gonna say bring it on.

You don't always get what you want. Life's not always what you want it to be. People say everything happens for a reason. I call bullshit on that. While it's true to some extent, it's pretty much the worst excuse a person could give. It's something that's said to ease things. To make someone feel better. Destiny? Everything in my life already predetermined? Just the very thought of that freaks me out.

As soon as I finished college, I went to Chennai for a month. Stayed there as long as possible, came back a day before my graduation show. Speaking of predetermined things, I had my palm read. I was at the beach when this old lady walks up to me and asks me if I wanted to know my future. I was more interested in finding out how she's gonna do that rather that what she was gonna say.

The first thing she told me was that I was not the type to listen to anyone. That, I usually do what I wanted. Fine, she deduced that from my weird (read, bad) hairdo and my tattoo. Not impressed lady.

Then she said a lot of other things which weren't really true but two things she said were interesting. She said something important would happen before the end of the ninth month. That I'll get what I always wanted.

Second, she told me that 'the one' for me was right in front of my eyes and I just needed to really look. Now I don't know if she's a fan of super cheezy stuff crust romcoms or she said it just for the hell of it.

Or maybe she meant it literally and was talking about herself.

Nevertheless, it was clever of her to say that. You know where I'm going with this right? Inception.

It's interesting how people work. It's interesting how a person chooses to present himself differently in different situations. It's interesting how some people live for others. It's interesting how much or how little they change. It's interesting to see others sacrifice so much while you're scared and selfish. It's interesting how some people are just irresistible while some repulse the hell outta you. It's interesting how nights seem longer than usual somehow.

And it's interesting how someone can hold on to something they never had in the first place.

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